"It was 1945. My father had been discharged from the army three 
              years earlier and within a year was smitten with a particularly 
              painful and virulent form of cancer. We were all completely devastated. 
              The war was put on the back burner. 
             "All our efforts went into caring for him and doing what we felt 
              was our inadequate best to ease his final days.
              "Throughout his suffering he still cracked jokes, played cards 
              and shaved himself. Sometimes he lay back, closed his eyes, clenched 
              his teeth, and beads of sweat formed on his forehead. Then I would 
              try to insert a morphine tablet into his mouth.
              "Later he would open his eyes and give a little smile. Towards 
              the end, I was reading Gone With the Wind to him, and once 
              he said, 'I would love to know how it ends."
              "I said, 'Patience. You'll soon know.' But he didn't. He died 
              less than half-way through it. The doctor said, 'He died like a 
              soldier.' I said, 'He was a soldier.'
              "After his death our war was finished. Although it was still dragging 
              on, we were becoming inured to the news, to rationing and shortages 
              and the whole dreary set-up. Our private grief had taken over from 
              what was happening in the outside world.
              "D-Day came and went. VE-Day came and went. Then, shortly afterwards 
              on the radio, I heard the news of the bombing of Hiroshima. I went 
              cold. I thought, 'Thank God Dad never knew about that.'
              "Thus another war ended but, for us as a family, without the rejoicing 
              of November 11, 1918.
              
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