"It was 1945. My father had been discharged from the army three
years earlier and within a year was smitten with a particularly
painful and virulent form of cancer. We were all completely devastated.
The war was put on the back burner.
"All our efforts went into caring for him and doing what we felt
was our inadequate best to ease his final days.
"Throughout his suffering he still cracked jokes, played cards
and shaved himself. Sometimes he lay back, closed his eyes, clenched
his teeth, and beads of sweat formed on his forehead. Then I would
try to insert a morphine tablet into his mouth.
"Later he would open his eyes and give a little smile. Towards
the end, I was reading Gone With the Wind to him, and once
he said, 'I would love to know how it ends."
"I said, 'Patience. You'll soon know.' But he didn't. He died
less than half-way through it. The doctor said, 'He died like a
soldier.' I said, 'He was a soldier.'
"After his death our war was finished. Although it was still dragging
on, we were becoming inured to the news, to rationing and shortages
and the whole dreary set-up. Our private grief had taken over from
what was happening in the outside world.
"D-Day came and went. VE-Day came and went. Then, shortly afterwards
on the radio, I heard the news of the bombing of Hiroshima. I went
cold. I thought, 'Thank God Dad never knew about that.'
"Thus another war ended but, for us as a family, without the rejoicing
of November 11, 1918.
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